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Today I am a single parent living with my three children and have been doing it alone for six
years. I have struggled financially, which has only added to the stress of parenting. I have
been turned down for assistance on occasion, left with nothing to feed my children. From
the icy cold of winter, to the scorching heat of the summer sun beating down on me, I have
walked my children to school, one on my back, the other beside me. But, the most difficult
of all combined with all the other stress has been, my struggle with coming to terms with my
childhood abuse, finding myself in the same shoes of the parent who has only known one
way of life...ABUSE!
The difference in her and I being, when that moment came, and I was standing there with a
belt in "my" hand looking down at my innocent child's eyes spilling tears, I knew, "I", was
crossing the line between love and hate, right and wrong! I found myself in my mothers
shoes, looking down at myself, and I knew I couldn't break my child, I knew "I" couldn't inflict
this pain "I" knew all too well. I went to my room, closed the door and cried all of my
childhood pain out. I returned to my child, dropped to my knee's, took him into my arms and
we both cried. I told him I was sorry. From that moment on, I vowed to never cross that line.
I separated myself from my childhood abuse. I questioned "my" methods and found a way
to transform my own experience into love. I looked in the face of truth, without judgment and
this brought to me awareness.
The understanding that my mother was also a victim of this vicious cycle of abuse was the
key to my forgiveness. The damage cannot be undone, but the cycle of abuse can
be broken and a new family relationship can be created based on love and understanding.
Although I still do not have a close relationship with my mother, I do lover her dearly.
Laurel
years. I have struggled financially, which has only added to the stress of parenting. I have
been turned down for assistance on occasion, left with nothing to feed my children. From
the icy cold of winter, to the scorching heat of the summer sun beating down on me, I have
walked my children to school, one on my back, the other beside me. But, the most difficult
of all combined with all the other stress has been, my struggle with coming to terms with my
childhood abuse, finding myself in the same shoes of the parent who has only known one
way of life...ABUSE!
The difference in her and I being, when that moment came, and I was standing there with a
belt in "my" hand looking down at my innocent child's eyes spilling tears, I knew, "I", was
crossing the line between love and hate, right and wrong! I found myself in my mothers
shoes, looking down at myself, and I knew I couldn't break my child, I knew "I" couldn't inflict
this pain "I" knew all too well. I went to my room, closed the door and cried all of my
childhood pain out. I returned to my child, dropped to my knee's, took him into my arms and
we both cried. I told him I was sorry. From that moment on, I vowed to never cross that line.
I separated myself from my childhood abuse. I questioned "my" methods and found a way
to transform my own experience into love. I looked in the face of truth, without judgment and
this brought to me awareness.
The understanding that my mother was also a victim of this vicious cycle of abuse was the
key to my forgiveness. The damage cannot be undone, but the cycle of abuse can
be broken and a new family relationship can be created based on love and understanding.
Although I still do not have a close relationship with my mother, I do lover her dearly.
Laurel
Laurel's Story
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